Have I Lost My Way? (Minotaur)
Graphite on frosted mylar with found object over map
30" x 42"
The Have I Lost My Way? series chronicles an honest review of my relationship with God. Each of the three works revolves around the myth of Daedalus. In these, the various characters from this tale overlap with me. I have appropriated these non-Christian narratives and reconstituted them as allegories for separation from God. Have I Lost My Way? (Minotaur) represents the most recent obstacle I have faced as a Christian: my desire to be in control. I do not mean this as an outright lust for power—rather, I recognize the responsibilities which have been placed in my charge and intend to see them through. My duties as a father and husband weigh particularly heavily upon me. Am I protecting them the best that God has made me able? Am I providing for them the best that God has made me able? Are we living in the place that God will use us most? Which path should I take? It seems clear to me that my obligation is to find the answers to these questions and act successfully upon the answers. I feel as though I am both Daedalus and the Minotaur, trapped within a maze of my own creation. What has been lacking is faith. I must do the best I am able and then trust in God to see it through.